Open Your Eyes

Kerrie Jones • May 19, 2025

Trauma creates negative cycles, and those cycles result in negative consequences, that then lead to negative feelings like sadness, despair, and frustration. When you get there it’s difficult to see anything positive about yourself or your life. You can’t seem to get it together, and you begin to speak in absolutes like, “I can never do anything right”, “I’ll never find someone to love me”, etc. A shallow hole grows deep and your find yourself stuck. The same perspective, however, is not typically true when you look at others – you only see sunshine and rainbows over their lives while your life is covered by dark clouds and rain.



The truth is we all experience sunshine and rain, and when we choose to only focus on one of these experiences, we can find ourselves in a state of overwhelm. If we choose to only focus on the good times, we are overtaken and distraught when not so good times present themselves. When we only focus on the bad times, we can exacerbate and even attract more negativity as our energy is consumed by the negative. Most times, there is both positive and negative happening in our lives at the same time, though we can’t always see it. Both are the fruit of our thoughts, words, and actions. When you sew an apple seed and you reap and apple trees with apples you’ve done exactly what you intended to do. When you sew oranges and you end up with avocados, and you hate avocados, you’ve done something wrong and it’s easy to get caught up focusing on the avocados instead of going back to the seed.  


If you’re not getting what you want out of life, open your eyes to the lesson. Often, the lesson isn’t apparent, otherwise, we wouldn’t find ourselves repeating negative cycles. When we can’t break out of patterns it’s a sign there’s something we can’t see. In this case, we need to seek out the help of others – a trusted and wise family or friend is capable of bringing your attention to what you cannot see on your own. A good therapist will also be able to shed light on the dark or hidden spots in your life. In my experience, when you’re seeking, you’ll find it; and when you know better, you will most likely do better.


Also, in the midst of your difficulty, it is helpful to notice what’s not so difficult; to see the areas in life in which you’re winning. You’re not a total loser, no one is; in fact, you’re not a loser at all, like the rest of us, you’re subject to lessons. No one’s life is overall easier than yours. Everyone has had to face lessons and overcome obstacles. When you believe you’ve missed a handout you subscribe to the idea that you must be rescued, and the truth is, there’s no one to rescue any of us. We were all born with the drive and will to take care of ourselves, and we all have had to face impediments to doing so. Somewhere along the way the shortcomings of those who were supposed to provide you with temporary care led you to believe there was something inherently wrong with you and that you need a lifelong caretaker. This is a lie. You were born with everything you need, maybe you buried or pushed some of it away because you thought it wasn’t useful for others, but those parts of you are more useful to you now than ever before. Lean into your uniqueness. Embrace your gifts. Acknowledge your flaws. All of it is a part of you, and all of it will carry you to the next level.


Nothing in life exists without positive and negative, all matter exists because of both. When you realize and accept that both exist in your life, you may discover a greater appreciation for the life you live; and that the fruit you get to enjoy is a result of the intentional seeds you’ve planted…open your eyes.

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Protecting My Peace

By Kerrie Hudson • March 10, 2026
There’s a lot of talk about protecting one’s peace these days, but what does that even mean? And how do you protect your peace? Let’s dig in. Peace is an emotion. In psychology there are five basic emotions that are widely accepted: anger, sadness, fear, disgust, and happiness. Unfortunately, of the five only one would be considered a positive emotion, though I believe all are positive in that they provide you with information. But I digress. Happiness, the more positive of the five is the one emotion you likely welcome with open arms, and when it comes, you want it to stay. You protect it. Peace lives on the spectrum of happiness, and like all other emotions, it is literally a feeling in the body. It feels like serenity; there’s stillness and a calm that comes over you. I’ve had folks identify peace in their bodies as the absence of the feelings they’re accustomed to: tightness in their chest, sweaty palms, stomach discomfort, etc. For many, peace is rarely felt, so when they feel it, or any other emotion for that matter, they fail to recognize the environment that nurtured it; and if you’re going to protect your peace, you’ve got to notice when you feel it and what contributed to it. Understanding peace as an emotion is necessary because the role of your emotions is to provide you with information about your environment. At times, emotions can be so intense and distressing that the focus shifts from the environment that ignited them, to suppressing or extinguishing them. But emotions aren’t the problem, the environment is. Every emotion is important, even those that you’ve identified as negative. They tell you that something in your circumstances or environment needs your attention, and when you ignore your emotions, you ignore the task at hand. Peace is a gift, and not everybody or every environment offers it. When you notice peace in your body, you also need to notice what nurtured it. Are there people who bring peace? Are there places where you feel more at ease? Identifying these sources gives you what you need to take care of yourself by accessing more of it. On the other hand, where do you experience the opposite of peace? Where, and with whom do you find chaos and confusion? If you’re going to protect your peace, these are environments and people who you need to limit contact with. If you’re going to protect your peace, you’ve gotta increase your self-connection by noticing your emotions, and allowing them to tell you what you need to increase your overall well-being. When you fight your emotions, you fight yourself and your best interests. Extended periods of suppressing emotions can lead to depression, anxiety, and other mental health conditions because two things are working against you: you are becoming more disconnected from yourself while existing in environment that don’t serve you. There’s no magic pill that creates more peace and happiness, it’s the consistent work of nurturing self-connection and meeting your needs, because you are the most important person in your world. May you grow exponentially in peace! If this resonated with you, you’re not alone. These are the conversations we continue inside Next Chapter: Notes from The Other Side, my monthly newsletter where I share insights, reflections, and guidance for women breaking toxic patterns and learning how to love themselves differently. Join Next Chapter here

The One Thing Standing Between You & Success

By Kerrie Hudson • February 8, 2026
The new year typically comes with a desire to be successful in an area where winning has been challenging. As such, we spend time thinking about what we want for the year ahead and commit to doing things that will help us achieve our goals. The challenge many of us run into is that we quit on our goals before we can clear the first few months of the year; so, while January is still with us, I want to share with you some information about what I believe to be the number killer of success, anxiety, and how to overcome it so you can have a greater chance at winning this year. Regardless of your goals, anxiety has a way of stepping in and stealing your motivation before you can gain much momentum. It’s the quiet voice lurking in the background telling you that you can’t have what you really want because it’s too hard, or you’re not good enough, or if you do attain it, something terrible will come along and take it away. Essentially, anxiety is at the heart of why you settle; you’ve listened to that little fearful voice that’s informed only by your limited experience and/or imagination, and convinced yourself you can’t have the thing you deeply desire; so your only option is to go without the tightened body, or the love you deserve, or the business that would positively impact the lives of others, which ultimately leaves you dissatisfied and even regretful. You’ve given up on your goals and dreams because of something that might happen, but probably won’t. If you’re going to disrupt this cycle the key is to challenge your ego. Many people believe the issue with the ego is cockiness and arrogance that leads one to see themselves as above others, and while that’s true, what most people fail to understand is the arrogance in perceiving fear as fact versus seeing it as just one of many possibilities. When you see your fears as fact you treat them as certainty and you make decisions that align with them, ultimately shortchanging yourself of the life you deserve. In reality, the ego can work for or against you, and combined with anxiety, an unhealthy ego will kill your ability to enjoy your life and achieve your goals. So, if you you’re going to succeed in anything and have a good time doing it, you must check your ego and anxiety so they don’t keep you in a constant state of settling in fear. If left unchecked, the ego will convince you not to invest too much or not to try too hard because “this probably won’t even work”, or “nothing good ever happens for me”. It will see losses as catastrophic events and overinflate the importance of a few outside opinions. Its goal is to keep you safe, when in reality, the things that pose a threat to you are likely not threatening at all. The key is balancing the ego by removing certainty from your beliefs, because anything that hasn’t yet happened isn’t certain, it’s a possibility. When you begin to see your fears as possibilities you can move from a place of guardedness to a place of curiosity; this helps you to open yourself to more possibilities than the one rooted in your fears, and when you see more possibilities, you can free yourself to take risks (which is necessary to succeed). With this shift, you can begin to see losses as lessons so you can use your setbacks as a setup to do better, to refine your approach, to put the proper supports in place; and as your gain more experience, you’ll begin to see realistic likelihoods of what can happen over possibilities and certainties, reducing the size of your fears. You begin to think “if I take these steps, it is possible that I won’t achieve my goal, but it is likely that I’ll be closer to it than if I settle here”, and when you take on this perspective beautiful things happen.