Emotions Are Information

Kerrie Jones • September 17, 2024

Emotions are information. Sometimes the information is relevant to today, and sometimes the information is old but somehow still directing our lives; either way, the more connected we are to our emotions, the more information we have about ourselves, and the greater control we have over our decision making. Fear, for example, is a really strong emotion. It has the capacity to stop us in our tracks, propel us into defense of ourselves, or to simply get us to run away. All of us are afraid of one thing or another, and if we don’t confront our fear, not by fighting it, but becoming intimately relational with it, the fear will always exist and possibly even grow; and whatever it is we are afraid of will continue to elude or control us.

 

Becoming relational with your emotions is as simple as sitting with them. I say simple, not easy, because it’s simple to understand, but not always so easy to do. Sitting with our emotions looks like sitting with the feeling that comes with the emotion. In the example of fear, you may feel a drop in the pit of your stomach. Sitting with the fear is sitting with the sensation in your stomach. The next step is then inquiring within yourself about the fear. Some questions you could ask yourself are, what am I really afraid of? What’s the worst thing that could happen? These two questions alone could reveal to you that you’re dealing with fear that’s rooted in your past, and no longer relevant to who you are, or the circumstances you’re in today. On the other hand, you may discover that what you’re afraid of is smaller in magnitude than the thing you actually want. Either way, it’s difficult to know what’s happening in you when you run away from the fear you’re feeling.

 

Typically, when we feel unwanted emotions (i.e., heart racing, tightness in chest, etc.) what we want more than anything is to make the feeling go away. The most logical way to do this is to give into the cries of the emotion, and in the case of fear it would be to fight the thing, run from it, or stop in our tracks. For many of us, the desire to push away our emotions is compounded by messages we’ve received from others to not feel whatever it is we’ve felt, if it wasn’t happiness. What many of us haven’t learned is that in the absence of a life-threatening situation, if we sit with the emotion and attend to ourselves in it, the feeling will pass and we have the benefit of the information we’ve gained that we would have otherwise not known about ourselves, enabling us to overcome fear or work through our emotions.

 

As I mentioned, this work isn’t easy. For some, sitting with emotions and feeling bodily sensations can be traumatizing; so please exercise caution and be compassionate with yourself if you find this to be difficult, or even impossible to do. For the rest of you, it will likely take some time to build your tolerance of your emotional experience and your focus to attend to yourself; patience and persistence is key. Awareness of your emotional experience is key to really knowing yourself. 

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Why Do I Stay When I Know I Should Leave?

By Kerrie Hudson • September 15, 2026
You know the relationship is toxic. You know you should leave. So why do you stay? Learn how familiar relationship patterns can keep pulling you back.

Why Do I Defend Someone Who Hurts Me? Understanding Trauma Bonds

By Kerrie Hudson • August 11, 2026
I was reflecting on the relationship I have with my older sister. Well, we don’t have much of a relationship today. Growing up, she was my very first trauma bond. Verbally, she expressed so much love and care, and at the same time, I experienced so much hate at her hands. I loved her. I was loyal to her. I was confused. That’s essentially at the core of a trauma bond. Confusion. And if the trauma bond itself isn’t confusing enough, they can be found everywhere: in churches, families, and especially in love, making them so difficult to detect. When you’ve grown up in a family where you were trauma bonded, then possibly a church or another institution where trauma bonding runs rampant, the dynamic becomes commonplace. In fact, it feels like home, a smelly one. One where visitors detect it, but the people who live there are oblivious. Just like someone who’s invited you into an offensive home, the realization that you’ve been trauma bonding can produce shame. In both situations it’s easy to overlook. Many people do. There’s nothing to do about the past, and taking responsibility for the future is key. But first, the issue at hand. At worst, a smelly home is offensive. But trauma bonds? They hurt. And that pain can go unnoticed for a while. Often, the pain of a trauma bond is first perceived by recognizing its impact on another. In churches, it looks like a pastor or authority figure hurting others while the congregation defends them. Eventually, the protection emboldens more abuse, and the hurt spreads. Some walk away, others continue to endure it because they hold onto the good and reject the bad even though it hurts. That’s the bond at work. In a family, a child defends the parent who hurts the other parent. They don’t understand the dynamic because the abusive parent is kind to them. Eventually as they grow, they are directly targeted and abused. In spite of the pain they feel, they hold on, because it “isn’t that bad”. The child knows two people, one who’s kind, and one who’s abusive. They want to believe the former is the “real them”, while they work to appease the latter, and it grows more intense. Early experiences like these create the mindset that causes you to hope for the best while experiencing the worst instead of walking away. It’s the setup for leaning into love that hurts, until it hurts so much that you eventually have no choice but to walk away. It’s a part of the relational blueprint you developed early that dictates love is supposed to hurt, at least a little; and when you tolerate a little hurt, you will tolerate a lot of it. When the warning signs of a trauma bond are visible to others, the people closest to you can see it; even those who can’t see it in their own relationships. They may not know what it’s called, but they can detect its impact, either now or in the future. If they intervene (and it’s best that they do), their expressions of concern can land as a threat to one of our most basic needs, love. It can also reinforce shame due to the exposure of the truth that you’ve been explaining away or hiding from yourself to make love work. Ultimately, it can lead to isolation and even more pain. For many people, instead of taking the intervention into consideration, they reject it, and often reject the people who love them most. The presence of pain, now or in the future, isn’t a big enough threat because it aligns with what you’ve come to believe love is. So, of course you’ll chase the trauma bond, because this is what “love” has always looked like. Love, or the potential for love, can be blinding to the reality of pain, especially if you’re starting with an unhealthy blueprint. The key is to take an honest look at the blueprint to determine how you got here, and to re-work it so it leads you to real love, not love as you’ve known it, but the love you desperately desire. I know that part of you may be pushing back, because you’ve already tried doing things differently, and it didn’t work. Journaling, listening to podcasts, and even taking the steps to fix your approach or your appearance. None of these are wrong; they are incomplete. You can’t attract something new from an old mindset. What you haven’t yet tried is doing the actual work of healing: exploring the dynamics that led you here, embracing thoughts of new possibilities, and becoming the person who no longer tolerates unhealthy dynamics so she has room for healthy ones. That’s the work. If you’re ready to do the work, The Restoration Group is where it happens. You learn the signs of abuse, and more importantly you’ll learn to detect it, to feel it in your body, to trust yourself. You’ll explore the difficulties of your attachment style and relationship dynamics and rework them to healthier ways of relating. The most important work we do is restoring the relationship with yourself, because if you don’t love you, you’ll reject anyone who does. Join this powerful group of women as they become the women they never imagined they could be. The next cohort begins this Thursday, August 13 th . After that, there’s only one more opportunity to do this work for the rest of the year. Register now.

Why You Stopped Trusting Yourself in a Toxic Relationship (And How to Get It Back)

By Kerrie Hudson • July 13, 2026
You’ve ended another toxic relationship. Looking back, you realize there were red flags that you saw and ignored. Now you’re wondering, “Why don’t I trust myself?” You’ve tried to figure out where you’ve gone wrong, and you’ve come to find that you’re successful in many areas of your life, except in love. As a result, you believe that self-trust lives on a spectrum, and that in some domains of your life you trust yourself wholeheartedly, while you struggle in others. But what if you actually don’t trust yourself at all? What if your trust has been placed outside of yourself all along? Let me explain. We live in a society that rewards conformity over difference, and for many of us our households followed suit. When we came into the world, we had to place our trust with others. We trusted our parents and caretakers to do right by us: to feed, clothe, and emotionally nurture us. When we were cute, cuddly, and without speech, they did all three instinctively without thought. The moment our differences began to emerge, it presented a challenge: to continue to nurture or to impose conformity. Instinctively, they chose the latter. For example, when a small child utters the words ‘no’ the typical caretaker views this as defiance that must be disciplined away instead of individuality that must be nurtured. One builds self-trust, the other strips it away. You, like many others, probably grew up in an environment that stripped it away. You colored. It needed to be in the lines. You chose mismatched clothes. You had to change. You might have even had objections to certain foods, but you had to eat everything on your plate. Experiences like these were foundational to you not being able to trust yourself. They taught you your thoughts, expression, and choices could not be your own. Naturally, you learned to ignore yourself while looking to those you relied on most for approval; not superficial approval, but you saw this as a means of survival, and it’s been that way ever since. With your inner world shaped around them, instead of being formed around that little one who naturally embodied the spirit of ‘no’, you leaned into behaviors that were guided by your need for approval. You likely performed well in school, sports, or some other talent. You learned to place value in the areas where you were celebrated. You prioritized the thoughts and opinions of others over your own. In many ways, this brought success. You did well, and it’s the reason for your achievements today. Where it fell short is that it never handed you the opportunity to think, feel, and behave independently, even when others didn’t agree. Ultimately, you learned to only trust yourself when it met the approval of others versus being able to trust yourself in spite of others. A strategy that worked beautifully back then, but has left you with holes that you can’t seem to fill today. You work hard, and maybe even enjoy the finer things in life, but ultimately, you’re unfulfilled. At work, your value is acknowledged, but not compensated. With family, you feel loved and accepted, but not authentic. And in love, you give all you’ve got, and find yourself circling back to pain. All of these dynamics are frustrating at best, but in love, it’s intolerable. Work provides. Family is intact. But love, it’s nowhere to be found. Let’s get into the why. At work, conformity is rewarded with a paycheck that also reinforces constraints that you can feel, but tolerate. With family, you know exactly which role you need to occupy to receive whatever benefit you can get. You may not like it, but it’s the way it’s always been. In love, you give, you perform, and you come up short every time. There’s the temporary comfort of a relationship, but ultimately the cycle repeats itself. You show up for love; they do you wrong. You’ve tried to address it by giving more, meeting demands, and changing yourself as you have in the other areas of your life. Here, however, the strategy doesn’t work, and this is why. True love is never rewarded by performance; it’s rewarded by authenticity. Love cannot exist without authenticity. Loving another requires that you be honest with yourself while determining if the person you’re considering is someone you can truly love. Being loved also requires you to be honest with yourself to show up as the real you and not the version that you believe others want. This level of honesty requires you to let go of control. Until now you’ve played it small and leaned into performance in an effort to control outcomes. You wanted them to love you. It hasn’t worked. You didn’t take a beat to consider if they were even worthy of loving you, nor do you know the person you’re presenting to be loved. When you release the outcome and trust that what’s for you will come to you, you’ve created the foundation from which to build self-trust. Letting go of outcomes is essentially letting go of others; and when you do, you free yourself to grab ahold of the person who matters most, you. You reclaim the responsibility to nurture the little person who once said ‘no’. She wasn’t wrong. She was raw, she felt things, and she wanted to be heard. The same is true for you today. You feel things, you’ve wanted to say things, but you’ve ignored them and pushed them away, for fear that you wouldn’t be accepted. You’ve even felt things about people. You gave them a chance anyway only to find that you were right about them all along. You’ve ignored your boundaries and said ‘yes’ when you meant ‘no’ because performance is all you’ve known. Here’s the truth: you might not be accepted everywhere (and that’s okay because everywhere isn’t acceptable for you), but you will be accepted somewhere. When you embrace this, the real work begins. The real work is reconnecting with everything that went dark as you were conformed instead of nurtured. Feeling your emotions instead of managing them. Trusting your gut instead of silencing it. Honoring your ‘no’ even when saying it threatens the outcome. This is the work of getting to the other side, and it’s the work we walk through together inside The Restoration Group. You don't have to know how yet. You just have to be willing to look. If you're ready to see where you stand today, that's where we start: Take the Diagnostic →